Drowning in porcelain, stifled screaming,
lungs filling. Induced feelings of surrendered
innocence flood my mind.
Shutting my eyes have never been the same,
the comfort of my bed now a nail in my head.
I'll scream these words out, squeezing all the pressure
out of my lungs until I collapse
My brightest colours will wither into grey
I'll never forget the way things used to be or so to speak
The smell of the ink that ran carelessly toward the end of the page,
on the letters where you said you'd always love me, slowly fade
I'm scared to wake up from this lovelorn dream knowing the ghost of you behind my eyelids remain otherwise unseen, and when i rouse I'll have to live knowing a life without you
Only torment and suffering and yet nothing seems to change
I wrecked my home for you, and that's fine, cause I'll build one for myself someday, starting with this fence
I'm going through things I don't deserve
Neither can I comprehend a divine life
that we could carry through.
An empty shell of a human being can't sustain
Is there a point changing now because it seems
it'll always stay the same
Is it really true that we can't paint a perfect picture together?
Even if time stood still; is it really worth it?
Descending; pulled down by tangled thoughts
Cant find a better home when there's a sign on every door
Finding a step closer but you feel so far away
A vessel heading nowhere, sick of masquerades
The way the ink ran carelessly, towards the end of the page
On the letters where you said you'll always love me slowly fade